Journals from my Childhood

Found these journals from my childhood from when I was age 8-9. Interesting what we think as children and what are interests are then. I found a lot of similarities in my current passions, and that’s fascinating we can be begin to formulate our interests from such a young age. I see my personality through these journals too. Funny and makes me smile.

Some observations from my childhood journals about myself:

  1. I used to love Halloween, but that changed! I now hate it. ha.
  2. I was always very detailed, observational, factual, and curious as a kid. Nothing has changed. I’m still that way.
  3. It seemed I used to reflect on things being fun and that I looked forward to the feelings and experiences of even little things in life when I was a child. I should do more of this as my journals are filled with anticipation of life from the small to the large events and are very much filled with happiness, gratefulness, and joy. I try to do this now, but it seems instinctual as a child from reading these journals. Time to slow life down.
  4. I always loved food.
  5. I did not like reading. I liked watching TV and I had a whole host of informational and fun TV shows and things for fun to do at any point. I kept busy and informed for my little self. Savored those shows. and I was proud of my knowledge I’d learn from them.
  6. I loved competition.
  7. I liked games and playing with my friends and family.
  8. I wanted it quiet to learn. And kept my little mind focused on school and good grades.
  9. I cherished all the people in my life and lived through their passions and love as being of great importance to me.
  10. I was funny and witty.
  11. I was creative.
  12. I always loved math even from age 8.
  13. I always loved music and playing instruments.
  14. I used to love drawing… what happened?

October 1996

10/01/1996 – October is Halloween. October is bow season which means hunting. October is Christopher Columbus’ birthday. And it may snow in this month. And October means only one more month until my birthday.

10/3/1996 – A pumpkin is round. It has seeds in it. A pumpkin you put out for Halloween. It is very scary. I like pumpkins because my mom makes pumpkin pie on Halloween. A pumpkin is very colorful. Pumpkins are sweet and so are you.

10/07/1996 – Trick or treat is fun. What I like the most is getting ready so I can go trick or treating. I like treat or treating with my friends. And I don’t like to stay at home on Halloween. I just can’t wait for trick or treat day. But, I’m sure a lot of children are going to have cavities. On my favorite day of the year. Halloween.

Date Unknown – On the weekend, I went to Hillsdale park. And I watched the night of the twister. On Saturday, we stayed home and watched T.V.

10/16/1996 – I am going to be a princess for Halloween. Halloween is very fun. I am getting ready for the Halloween Party. I like playing outside for recess. Yesterday night, I skated outside. It was fun. Outside I played on “something – I don’t know what!? lol And my favorite thing in school is math.

10/17/1996 – Yesterday for supper, I had a pizza and salad with Italian dressing. I asked my Mom a joke. It was how was the first pizza hamburger made? And she said, “nothing”. I said, the answer, “You put pizza hut and burger king together” Before I went to conference, my next door neighbor came over. Today, I am going to my dad’s. Probably to my grandma and grandpa’s too. My dad’s girlfriend has a nine-month baby. On November 7th, she’ll be one years old. Out for recess this morning, I’m thinking about playing on the monkey bars. They are fun, but they give me blisters on my hands.

Date Unknown – My grandpa and I played rummy last weekend, and I beat him. Rummy is fun. I look forward to doing it again. And, I went to Big Boy on Saturday night. It was sure tasty. I had a shake. And that night I went to my dad’s and played with my sister Julia.

Date Unknown – Dear Great Pumpkin, Your always out on Halloween. Your better in a pie. You come out on Halloween and you scare people. Your better than me because you scare people better than me.

Date Unknown – I like Halloween that’s the best thing in October. But, I like one other thing too. I like the Fall. And the party today, and the movie, but really I like the whole thing.

November 1996

11/5/1996 – “When I’m Tired I” – When I’m tired I get so I wont listen. One of my eye’s goes crossed-eyed. I want to go to sleep in the living room. My mom says to “go to your room and sleep”, but I don’t want to. One minute I’m asleep.

11/06/1996 – Election ’96 – Clinton won the ’96 pole. I’m glad he did. Dole was pretty close. Probably only got just a little up. I stayed up til 10 minutes to 9. I couldn’t stay up any more, but it was fun watching it.

11/11/1996 – “Weekend” – I watched T.V. I went to video connection with my friend. She spent the night. We had a great time. We watched “The Fox and the Hound”. We had ice cream. The next morning, I went to church with my friend. Friday, I went to my grandma’s. It really snowed last night. I like winter.

11/12/1996 – “Why Dolphins Call” – I like the part were the pirates turn into dolphins. If I were a pirate, I would of left the boy laying because maybe he was friend with them yet. I like that book.

11/14/1996 – One day a good was swimming the lake. He went up with a duck. That duck said, “Do you want to play hide and go seek?” Well, the good said, “Yes”. So, they played. The duck said, “Your it”. The duck hid. The goose started counting and counting. He went to look for the duck. He couldn’t find the duck. He was gone.

Date Unknown – “Turkey” – My grandma told me a true story about a turkey. One day when my grandma was working in the barn, she saw there was a tornado storm warning and the turkey was out there. It came at the end of it that the turkey was still sitting on the fence-post, but that turkey had no feathers. They were all gone.

11/18/1996 – “Weekend” – Angela went to the mall. Grandma went to the mall. I went to the mall. We all shopped together. Saturday, Santa came to the mall in Adrian at ten-o-clock a.m. I spent a night with my dad.

11/20/1996 – “Sick day” – I was sick Tuesday. I had the 24-hour-bug. I threw up in the office. I came home and went to bed and didn’t wake up until 6:00. I was hungry, but I couldn’t eat soup. I came to school. I couldn’t find the classroom.

11/22/1996 – “Talents” – I have talents at singing and drawing. I am good at playing instruments. I would like to be good at playing soccer. Sometimes, I draw sitting at the table or in my bedroom. I sing at my dad’s and at my aunts.

11/26/1996 – “Thanksgiving” – For thanksgiving my mom’s making stuffing, smashed potatoes, turkey, vegetables, pie. My mom and mines friends are coming and family’s. It’s good to celebrate Thanksgiving. A lot of people died on the mayflower. I like thanksgiving. You get food and get to see your family.

December 1996

The nutcracker was on in December last year. WE was going to walk there, but it snowed. WE got there and they gave us candy canes. We got back and we got to go somewhere again to the church. I got presents. It was fun. After that we got ice cream. And a few moments later, it was time to go home.

In a story, it said his belly when he shakes it’s like jelly. i Have seen him many times. I saw on his lap one day. I was only 3 years old and I said to him, You’re fat. He said, I eat lots of cookies every year. I like Christmas day. It is fun because you get to be with your family.

Dear Maria, For Halloween, I was a barbie. My hair color is brown. On Christmas day, I get up at about 3 o clock in the morning. We are making presents for our moms. I can’t wait to see you. Your Pen-pal, Aleesa.

The way I feel – I’m glad because we are in the first place in the coin drive. We beat Ms. Pretty’s room. But if we don’t bring money we wont beat them. The reason why I have not brought money is because I gave my money to my mom to put up. But she said this morning she couldn’t find my money. I had 32 dollars. I’m going to look for my money tonight.

My favorite food is poop. On christmas day, my mom makes fudge. It is good. I like my mom’s candy. She makes it out of peanut butter. I’m sure you will like the fudge my mom’s bringing for Christmas party. The walk through is tonight. I’m sure we might be a pretty room. We made stockings today. Our year is almost done. They said on he radio the 1996 cars are almost almost history.

Aleesa’s December – December is a great month because Christmas is the 25th of December. And we have a party on the 20th of December. I like Christmas because you get presents. Mrs. Johnson is an excellent teacher. I brought fudge for the party. It is good I think. WE having a pizza party too. Because we won the can drive. I like Christmas.

January 1997

January – New year 1997. Cold weather. Snow. Ice fishing. Ice Skating. Wood cutting. Muzzle load season. Snowmobiling. Hibernation. Super bowl. Basketball.

I beat my grandpa in a game of rummy. I got a baby doll. It is ceramic. I went to my grandma’s and grandpa’s and dads. I played with my cat. I went over to my aunt and uncles. I saw lots of different animals. I got the flu and then everybody got it.

On Christmas – My mom got a new coat and an outfit. My dad got peanut butter candy he liked it. My brother got sock s he liked them. I think about everybody liked their stuff.

Snowy days – Today is a snowy day. It is only about five degrees out, but I heard on the news that there is only twenty degrees and that is not going to last. I think most of the cities are cold. The snow is about 4 inches in Jonesville. It is very cold. They wanted to know more about the degrees and that’s why I knew it was 4 inches.

Fish – These are the things that I know about fish. Fish have scales. They have eyes. They aeat fish. They have fins. There are all kinds of fish. There are different colors of fish. Some fish bite other fish. I don’t like eating fish over to my mom’s. They have lots of fish.

Gennie – Gennie came to our house. She came to see the new connary. We went to get some snacks at the buddys. The store was filled with things to eat. WE got some celery and peanut butter. We got to the checkout land. We saw aunt merry. Aunt merry came to gennie’s house. We had celery with peanut butter on it.

The best day of January – School is getting better because were getting into harder work. I like that. I got to watch tv more and go outside more. Got to go on the “A” honor roll. That’s hard. Got to bring in the new year. Had to eat chilly “Yuck”.

February 1997

Valentines Day – I like valentines day because I get presents and candy and valentine cards. I get spoiled on Valentines day. I eat valentines day dinner. We usually get a chicken because my Mom is diabetic and party at school.

Weekend – I went to my dads. We played a game of sorry and my dad won the game. And I played with my cat bonnieclyde and I played with my sister Julia. I went over to my grandpa’s and grandma’s. I played a game of rummy with my grandpa. He won. Grandma and me played the piano and we played mary had a little lamb. Because my mom and my dad are divorced.

Abraham Lincoln – Abraham Lincoln was a president. He lived in a big white house. You can see his face on a five dollar bill. He died a long time ago. He had a wife. He had a lot of friends. He was a very good president.

Valentines Party – Today is valentines day and party. I’m excited about it. For valentines day my mom gave me a twin sheet over and baha game, tites 2 par. Like I told you, my mom spoils me on valentines day. Usually people and kids don’t get that much. I got the class valentines cards. They are the Muppet babies. I have a friend. Her name is Samantha. I got her a valentines day card, crayola crayons, and coloring book.

Great Pandas – A panda is a black and white animal. They live in a bamboo forest in the upper mountain slopes of western and southwestern China. Giant pandas are rare and are protected by law in China. Zoologists disagree whether to classify pandas in the raccoon family or in the bear family or in a family of their own. Giant pandas have a chubby body with black eyes and broad band of black across the shoulders. It’s getting hard to protect pandas because every 15 to 20 years bamboo die and that’s what they eat. That’s why they live in bamboo forests.

What I learned – I learned today that not to use outside voices inside a building i’m in. I’ve been having a hard time doing this because my friends and me go outside and make a lot of noise and people complained. And we should start doing it in school. The whole classroom was noisy and was not doing their work. That’s bad. That makes your grades go down.

The Boy Who Cried Wolf Response – Where you surprised that the boys father didn’t punish him for losing the sheep? Yes, I was surprised. What would you have done? I would punish the Sheppard boy. I liked that act.

Best of February – I like February because of book-it is done. The reason why is because I get to go to pizza hut. My favorite food in pizza hut is pizza. I watch t.v. and I watch Save by the bell and Klarissa explains it all. After school, i watch Jack Hanna’s wild adventures. It helps me on science. It has a lot of animals.

March 1997

Florida – I would like to fly in a airplane and go to florida. Go to disney land and ride a cruiseboat, listen to the boats horns go off, and find sea shells from the ocean. Have my mom rent a boat and go on it and have some of my friends come and go to Hawaii for two days. Take a walk and move down to florida in a house.

Musical Talent – I am talented at playing the recorder. Because I can pick it up and just play a song right off the bat. I think I’m born with talent I got because all the Tomans can do that. My aunt could play the organ when she was 4 years old.

Video-tape contest- 70 percent of the world is water. Fish have backbones. There are different kinds of fish. Fish get oxygen from the water. Fish hear with their sides of their body. Many oceans have lost their fish from people fishing. Some live their life in water. Fish know where their home is by smell. Fish have to float in the water first before they can swim. They move their tales side to side so that they can swim. They are different colors of fish. There are different shapes of fish. I think people should stop eating fish or not catch a lot of fish. Fish have fins and galls and scales. Fish are hatched from eggs. Their parents leave them alone.

On the Banks of Plum Creek- I liked chapter 20 “School”. They said they didn’t need to go to school, so they picked up a book that their mother was reading and copied what she said and said “yes, I can”.

No Power – I woke up Friday morning and went to the bathroom. Just got in the bathroom tried to turn on the light, but it didn’t work. There was no water. We lit candles. That made it a bit better. We still didn’t have power. Our food is going to spoil. They’re suppose to get us lights today. We were supposed to get lights yesterday, but we didn’t. There was a tree that fell on a car at my grandma and grandpa’s and a tree fell down in their yard.

Nicknames – I have a lot of nicknames people call me Lisa, Alisha. They spell my name different ways too. They spell it like this Alisa, Alessa, Allessa, aleasa. All of them are wrong. Here is how you spell my name like this Aleesa.

Cat and Kittens – I want to have a cat. A nice fluffy cat. A brown and white cat. One that will not run away from me. Or hissssssss at me or scratch me. I want to have a kitten that will sleep with me at night. One that will not catch birds. One that will catch mice or rats. So, I wont have them in my house. One that will not go in the road. My kitten got hit by a car.

Railroad Camp – I like when they say there was no sound. But the horses tapping their fee. They could not let marry the front of the seat. I like when she goes out and rides the ponies. When loria fees the ponies.

Journal

Happy Birthday – I love my birthday. My birthday is fun. Because I get one year older and the presents.

This summer, I went shopping to see Twister. WE went to jackson to go see the Cascades there was water and it lighted up.

I’m going to be in the Hillsdale parade. I’m going to walk with Bucky. I’m going to have a lot of fun and I can’t believe it is here.

We went to the Kroger parking lot and watched the cheerleaders, then we went to Wendy’s and I got a kids meal and a frosty. Then, I went home and ate it and it was very good.

My friend Amanda comes over to play in my tent and this morning and I woke up and there was no milk so I went to my next door neighbor and got some.

As they went down the hill, Pa woke up because of the pig. I love little house in the woods. That’s the carpenter. I like it. I think it was funny.

My grandma is 73 and my grandpa is 84. My grandpa’s favorite thing to do is working on cars and trucks. And my grandma’s favorite thing to do is buy things for her. My grandpa’s chores are to mow and work on things. My grandma’s chores are to cook and clean. They live in Onsted. They have a white house.

Monday night I had a loose tooth when I came back from Brownies. I saw it was only on one root and I twisted it and it came right out. Now I have a window in my mouth. I put in under my pillow and I got a one dollar and fixed supper last night. We had chicken and french friends and apple and for dessert we had cheesecake. And did doesn’t want to get up that night and finally I got up and then my mom turned on the radio.

The moon has craters and highlands and gravity keep the moon and the earth together. The moon has mars. The moon has rays. Revolves means to go around an object. Rotate means to spin around in one space. The shapes of the moon that you see are phases.

I went to the fair on Monday and I was in the parade. I rode on the Strawberry and the firetruck and the thunder bolt and spaceship 2000. But before my mom was in the fairgrounds she got a ticket because she was in a no parking. I had french friends and drinked pepsi.

Yesterday, on the way to Grandmas I looked for yellow cards and there was only 1 car. When it was time to go we went to McDonalds and on the way back I looked for white cards and there was 90 cards. And I got my hair cut about 8 inches was cut off.

Be the “Plain Jane” You… Because She’s Beautiful!

Life Has Beautiful Learning Blog’s definition of the “Plain Jane” you:

Forget what you’ve been told or think about Plain Janes. Let’s re-write what this means in a positive way. Being the “Plain Jane” you is being your most natural, authentic-self. It’s understanding yourself. It’s letting go of what other people expect of you or think of you and embracing who you are in the most natural way possible. 

Why is the “Plain Jane” me beautiful?:

Doing things because of or being a particular way because of other people or trends isn’t being your authentic self and therefore, while you may “feel beautiful”, this could be short-lived and is not grounded in understanding your authentic, natural self. It’s acting through other’s approval and it is a short-term, unstable way to be. 

By being the “Plain Jane” you, you not only feel beautiful, but you are also truly yourself and that’s a beauty that is sooo deep and so needed. You radiate with authenticity and shine in a way that everyone notices (whether they want to admit or not). You don’t worry about what others think about you now that you’re “Plain Jane” you. You are you; because she’s beautiful. 

You want to learn who you are, embrace who you are, and continue to learn who you are. Yes, people of all ages are learning more and more about their natural, authentic “Plain Jane” selves. Continue to explore and become more and more of who you naturally are. By being your “Plain Jane” self, you accept that you will not just “go with the crowd” or live through other’s approval of who they think you should be. 

If you’re not completely sure yet who you are to a T… don’t worry – we’re all working on our Plain Jane self and this journey never ends. Don’t get discouraged that you will always need to learn about yourself in this life if you are. Don’t panic or overwhelm yourself over this in any way. Start with some tips below to be your Plain Jane self and continue to be her. 

How do I be my “Plain Jane” self?:

  • Don’t enjoy wearing make-up but everyone around you and with you says you have to or might think you look ugly if you don’t have it on.

Don’t wear it now. Or do it a little more natural if you want to. It’s now about how YOU want to be. You don’t have to wear make-up or a lot of it to be beautiful. You do things now being your “Plain Jane” self only because you want to and it makes you feel good. Not because of others telling you that you need to do something or because you think you will not be accepted if you don’t.  

  • You feel terrible in those skinny-jeans or “insert any other clothing item here”, but your friends all wear them so you have to. 

No, you don’t have to wear what you feel terrible wearing. Doing something even though you feel terrible about it is not being your “Plain Jane” self. So, ditch those skinny-jeans. Wear what you feel comfortable and yourself in. 

  • You absolutely hate yoga (or any other exercise and/or relaxation method), but “yoga” is the IT thing… So, you know: I yoga. 

No, you don’t yoga now, my beautiful Plain Jane. You find an exercise and/or relaxation method that YOU LOVE. Be yourself; don’t yoga or do things when you hate them. Now, if you hate them only because it’s hard but you kinda like them, that’s a different story. Sometimes things are tough, and that’s ok. But, if you’ve found or are finding that you don’t like something… move on and find new. 

  • I’m a vegan or vegetarian, but it’s only because I want to be “part of that community”… I secretly hate it, hate my life, and want to eat that meat, soooooooo bad. LOL! 

You eat that meat now… Go out and eat it – right now! Because you’re living something you’re not. You’re not being your natural, authentic-self. You’re doing things because you want to fit in or be something you’re not

  • I’m a republican. I’m a democrat. I’m a libertarian. I’m “insert any other political party on earth here”. BUT, I don’t know what that is even. Or/and – I’m only this because my best friend, family, boyfriend, or the person down the road is. 

Ok, stop labeling yourself or being something because others are or that’s the cool thing to be. Don’t be something you dont even know what is either. You figure out and study the political parties (and there are many… not just republican or democrats – research them all.) and you figure out what one is best suited for your own natural, authentic Plain Jane self. You are and be what is YOU… don’t be something because everyone thinks that’s what you should be or you feel you’d be less than if you weren’t something. Now, this can be tough in this day and age and political environment. It is hard. However, sometimes being our “Plain Jane” selves isn’t easy and we shouldn’t just give up on being her.

YOU STAND STRONG AND BE WHO YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU STAND FOR, IN YOUR HEART.

Summary of, How do I be my “Plain Jane” self:

Don’t do things that aren’t your natural, authentic self. Don’t do things you hate, don’t wear things you feel terrible in, don’t do things you don’t enjoy, don’t be something you don’t even know what is – find out first if it’s something that’s for you, don’t label yourself something or be something because others are or that’s the “it” thing to be. 

My beautiful, Plain Janes… Remember this, ALWAYS:

You’re smart. You’re worthy. You’re beautiful. And you’ve got what it takes. Don’t second-guess yourself or think you can’t be the “Plain Jane” you… EVER. You need to keep telling yourself this and believe it.

Believe in who your natural, authentic-self is and visualize yourself being her – now be her through that vision.

Believe me, you got this! You’re beautiful! 🙂

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The High-School Awards Ceremony I never forgot…

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This writing was another reflection exercise I did for one of my MBA Leadership Classes.

This class was so profound for me in my MBA. It helped me to learn sooo much about myself and how my life experiences have affected me and thus in-turn as a leader.

……

It was at an end of the year awards ceremony in high school that I realized I was at the top of my class and I was different.

That year each teacher gave out top three students in their class awards as well as top 10 for each subject. I found out that I was in the top 3 for every one of my classes and top 3 in my entire class. This was in about 9th grade this occurred. I
found that I was 3rd performing in my class at that point.

I didn’t know this until that exact point. I just simply did my work and didn’t care that I was performing well.

It started with a few awards, and then after about 4 trips up to the podium in front of the entire high school I started to realize that this was both eye-opening, but also I felt sad. My classmates soon realized that I was standing up for nearly every award there was given to be a recipient, and they all started guessing that I was going to be called ahead of time. They did this with all of the 3 of us or so that had numerous awards. They seemed upset that we kept getting the awards and they didn’t.

I was picked on afterwards about the awards. They said I didn’t deserve them and that I was just “Miss Smartypants” and that I needed to help them cheat on their homework because I had all of the right answers. Some of the people in my class actually did help them to cheat and they played up the attention while I again got frustrated by everyone and I thought of myself as different for not allowing myself to help my classmates cheat. I offered them the chance for me to teach them, but they didn’t want it. They went to those that would simply give them the answers.

It wasn’t until this awards ceremony and the aftermath that I realized I felt and was different from my classmates in many regards. I went home that night of the awards ceremony with about 10 awards total. I felt sad because I wanted everyone else to be able to feel a sense of achievement and recognition like I had at the ceremony. I felt sad for them that they had to watch me come to the podeum again and again and I felt their pain.

I felt so many emotions for the people out in the crowd watching me again get an award, and what was worse was that to me the awards really didn’t mean anything. To me,
they were paper and I didn’t like the attention that came with getting an award.

I didn’t want everyone to think of me as “Miss Smartypants”.

I wanted them to see past this and look at me as good friend or a caring person.

Time to smell the reality flowers and stop smelling the turds of imperfections… my people.

For many years now, when it came to starting a business of my own and creating action towards my entrepreneurial passion I’ve had since high school, I have sat in my own head creating endless loops of thinking and overthinking. Downing myself and putting away this passion as something that’s just not for me. Literally any excuse I can create for myself or hear from others, I’ve allowed to dictate my movement forward. I’ve finally decided…. I can do this and be this and I don’t care what my former self told me as true or anyone else for that matter, and I need to get out of my own head and move forward.

For years, I have sat around and thought and thought and thought and thought and thought about business ideas and written endless business plans and gotten excited and then, sadly, torched my own beautiful fires.

Mostly, it’s been myself entirely… my own insecurities not allowing myself to move forward with my own thoughts of myself. But, it has also been the people I’ve told my thoughts to over the years who have helped me to add to my list of endless excuses and crutches with moving forward.

There have been VERY FEW people in my life that have encouraged me and I mean really encouraged me to go after my entrepreneurial passions. They say, “Take the safe road, you’re not ready, you don’t understand the work involved, you’re an accountant – you aren’t going to be good at sales & marketing – why do you think you’d make it?, just wait – you’re young, laughing at me for my creativity for my business ideas because apparently they think this is just some funny shit to add to their entertainment and not something serious, that’s not good enough of a career for you, etc etc etc etc etc etc etc”. Mostly, I haven’t thought I actually WAS listening to them and taking those things to heart, but I was indirectly as much as I wanted to think I wasn’t. I figured, hey great they want to say what they think and offer me little golden nuggets that I can choose or not choose to use in my life. (Yea, I still think that’s true…. but what the bad part is about it is coming…)

What listening to everyone with all these crutches concerning moving forward did to me was that it slowly crept into accepting those truths about myself and they gave me endless excuses for myself even in ways my own mind couldn’t….. it just added to all the misery that kept me away from passionately and positively pursuing my own gems in my life.

I’ve been stuck in my own head… examining those worries or allowing them to be truths for too long. So, recently I decided…. you know, nobody – including myself – can stop me. I don’t care if I fail at this or not – I’m doing it. And I don’t care about perfection anymore.

People, including myself if I let myself, can hold onto every imperfection they see or think, or even smell from afar as a turd even if it truly smells like a beautiful flower in reality. Time to smell the reality flowers and stop smelling the turds of imperfections… my people. Go forth and get out of that head and everyone elses’s head too!… GO FORTH!

(Yeppp… Got into my real crazy, nutty writer’s head here on that last paragraph! LOL!!)

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We are great. I’ll say that again… WE ARE GREAT. <3


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We are great. I’ll say that again… WE ARE GREAT. ❤

Oftentimes, we don’t give ourselves enough credit for the very person we are that makes us amazing. We’re more than the amazing parts though… our good, our bad, our beautiful, our ugly, our worst and best habits and self…it’s all us. And well, that’s all fine! Every part of us. Stop the comparing. Stop the trash talking about ourselves. Stop thinking we are no good and putting ourselves deeper and deeper into a pit of awfulness that leads nowhere. We only hurt ourselves. We are great and beautiful in every way we are and aren’t.

Instead of comparing, look at all those things you love about someone and be so happy and thankful for them for all their grandness. Love them to death. And the parts you don’t like about yourself or others… Have patience, stop being so harsh, and find relief and joy in the fact that we don’t and will NOT have everything perfect in life. This is life. We all have things to work on.

Be grateful and thankful for all you’ve done and became given the circumstances you were delt in life. Nobody’s history is the same. We’ve had to do and become things through our lives, not just all because we wanted to, but because sometimes we had to. And those traits and skills we’ve developed and/or some of the downfalls we have collected in ourselves over the years are the remnants of history and battle wounds of our lives. Stop putting yourself down for things that were out of your control.

We are great. Don’t compare. Don’t trash talk anyone including yourself.
Love yourself and love others to death too.

Thank you to the Young Man Cleaning Tables Today – Good Reminder of Doing a Good Job & Being Proud of It

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Photo by Denisse Leon on Unsplash

I went to a restaurant by me today for a bowl of soup. I’ve been feeling a bit under the weather. There was a young man about 15 years old or so cleaning tables.

He didn’t miss any detail and was fully emersed in doing his work the very best he could. Nothing else mattered while performing the task and he was happy to do the work. No spec of dirt missed. As he finished every table, he’d look it all over and smile so proudly and humbly. It meant a lot to him to have those tables clean and tidy and do a good job.

This impresses me and makes me think of the little things in life that are so great. You don’t have to have a fancy job to do a job well and be proud.

Do things well and complete to the best of your ability in all you do no matter what that is. Be proud and humble too.

Thank you to the young man cleaning tables today. You inspire and teach us all very valuable lessons.

LIFE, A FEATHER, AND DREAMS

I want to live the dreams that have been in the back of my mind for many years. I feel an odd calmness, unlike anything that I’ve had in many years. I would almost describe as this: I feel like a feather with a sense of passion and direction, but without anything to get in the way allowing it to float freely and travel where it wants, unbound by anything. I think about my dreams of visiting huge cities but also roaming through open nature filled fields without a single worry in life and only a sense of wonder and curiosity. I want to walk around barefoot and smell the earth and feel the dirt between my toes. A fresh breath of crisp air and sense of being. I want to teach others, read, learn, people watch, and experience. I want to live simply and decluttered and clean. I want to show off my fashion and beauty and creativity. I want to inspire others to do good and be all that they can be. I want to listen to music and enjoy the fruits and talent of others and see the special side to them that makes them unique. I want to run and I want to walk. I want to see the joys of life and experience all there is….
LIFE. It is so beautiful.

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Photo by Jenelle Hayes on Unsplash

(Originally written on: 04/16/2015)
Medium.com version of this post can be found here: https://medium.com/@aleesatoman/life-a-feather-and-dreams-fbbd97f3b5d7

Life’s Simple Pleasures

LIFE’S SIMPLE PLEASURES❤

Sometimes we can forget the simple things we like and are passionate about in life. This can even be as detailed as the smells, sights, and foods among many other simple and sometimes overlooked details in our life that evoke happiness and joy. Inspired by an exercise in a book I read (see details at the bottom of this post), I put together an evolving list of my life simple pleasures. I encourage you to do the same sometime. It doesn’t take too long, and it’s a nice refresher of your inner self-passions and often-times overlooked details that add value to your life. Hope you enjoy. ❤

My Life’s Simple Pleasures

  • Hearing the birds and other animals chirp in the morning with the smell of freshness and life. 🙂
  • Walking around barefoot even outdoors in the grass and dirt.
  • Sipping tea or coffee
  • Reading blogs and other short articles from news or other reputable sources
  • Reading about other people’s lives to get ideas
  • Pondering things. Especially life, human nature, morality, and personal growth.
  • Going to the salon to get my hair, nails, and other things done to make myself feel even more beautiful and trendy.
  • Travel
  • Driving in my car listening to music and singing with it just awfully but not caring at all. Lol
  • Being around old people. Especially older couples still completely in love and older couples & groups of elders having dinner conversations about life and current events. I want to do that when I’m old! I’m inspired!
  • Taking a walk in my community
  • Taking a walk in nature and usually observing the animals.
  • Going to museums and art galleries
  • Going to instrumental musical performances
  • Eating a really healthy, full of different veggies salad, raw veggies, and mixed fruit.
  • Having moments of reminiscing back to great memories of the past. This might involve traveling on occasion to my once favorite go-to restaurant or city where I used to live for a small moment of history but delight of what I love and have loved.
  • Spending time with my family doing very special things with them like going to a restaurant, eating, a concert, a play, a movie, or other events. I also enjoy simple things like talking with them and spending time with their loving pets.
  • Having time to just sit and have no obligations before me so that I can do whatever I want to do.
  • Keeping my apartment decluttered and clean.
  • Spending time with animals.
  • Buying new or used clothes, shoes, and accessories that show off my style.
  • Eating chocolate or other desserts and reallyyyyy enjoying them.
  • Reading books that I find interesting like the Simply Luxurious Life, Thirty Chic Days, The Leadership Contract, Minimalism Books, Zen and other Buddhism lifestyle books.
  • The smell of freshly cleaned clothes and blankets.
  • Being a part of a group that is working together to make something better. I like feeling apart of something and enjoy being around those that inspire and motivate me to be my best self and in turn, I can do the same for them also.
  • Going to a coffee or tea shop and just sitting and doing homework or reading or playing on the internet.
  • Listening to live music at coffee shops or sophisticated bars
  • Occasionally going to see a movie out while eating my kids sized popcorn combo. Lol
  • Laughing and finding humor in the little things.
  • Trying new things to see if I like them… getting out of my shell a little at times to do something different.
  • Talking to people about their hopes, dreams, and goals. I want to really know what motivates people and what their pleasures are. Who and what they care about and love. What they’re passionate about.
  • Running, playing tennis, playing softball.
  • Understanding what’s going on in the world and in my community. I like information.
  • Observing artists in action and/or seeing them with their pieces of art and/or craft so that I leave so happy and satisfied that these people are doing something special and following their passions in life.
  • Writing. Especially my goals in life.
  • Waking up warm and cozy and never wanting to get out of bed because it feels soooo good. Lol
The inspiration for this writing and brainstorm of my life simple pleasures came from the writing exercise found in Shannon Ables book, “Choosing The Simply Luxurious Life: A Modern Woman’s Guide”. You can read more about her and her blog here: www.thesimplyluxuriouslife.com
(Originally written on 08/26/2017)